Monday, November 06, 2006 @ 5:00 AM
start of classes! no!
Yes, my slacking lazy days are over and back to normal (isn't slacking and being lazy a normal thing for me?) and I just hate first days! You know, like having to stand and introduce your name and tell something bout yourself, I hope they can just skip that part! I'll just make an update later on how's my day!Labels: Blah blah...
@ 4:50 AM
the thicker the better!
Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! Whew! I just had my series of sugaring (note: not waxing) two days ago and I didn't thought it would be that easy to pull out the hair from my lower legs, which I really loved the result btw. So smooth, hair free ahhh! Feels like heaven! Ja! It was really easily, yet a bit painful `coz the consistency of the mixture was so sticky that you can even feel the "pulling effect" upon application! My wooden applicator (which is a wooden tongue blade, thanks to my kit!) is now going to rest in peace, ja, it's broken now and all credits go to this very very sticky mixture!But I do prefer this sticky one, I just have to endure the pain and aghh! Pull!
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Friday, November 03, 2006 @ 11:08 AM
What's for today
Yesterday I have the ff cards and yes, they are very true. And I realized that I really have to change and don't let my fears keep me from doing so...* 4 of cups - this one is actually true, I am really feeling some sort of dissatisfaction in our relationship and yes, I am trying to escape from it by trying to leave and be away, without telling him my feelings, which is not right. I really have to change for the better. I can't just keep on escaping. I have to face and change it. I don't want to keep this relationship stagnant.
* 8 of swords - my fears are keeping me still. Yes, it's holding me back, and it keeps me from growing. I fear of the consequences I will make, I fear that whatever I will say will have an effect not favorable for me. Yes, yes, yes.
* knight of cups - this is definitely him.
Labels: Tarot
Thursday, November 02, 2006 @ 10:54 PM
Empty...
I don't know what's happening and I can't explain what I'm feeling today and for the past few days, I easily get irritated and I get furious over small things. I felt like something is missing, I feel lonely. Maybe because I am expecting too much fromHe is not perfect and so am I. Nobody is perfect. But I really can't help myself. I want to stay away from him and give myself some time to think and internalize, but I don't want to. It's not that I CAN'T, I just don't want to be away from him. He means so much to me and I know that my day wouldn't be complete without him.
I am mean. I want to change that, really. I love him, there's no doubt about it. Maybe I am trying so hard to make ours a perfect one, with a perfect future. Too much expectations, high hopes and in the end, it left me empty.
Fear? I am afraid, so afraid that one day, he'll just leave me. I still can't believe that up to now, I'm still affected with my father's death. I am traumatized by the experience. But life is really like this. All must come to an end. It's just, I'm not ready for that one and it made a huge impact in my life. Wherever my dad is, I know he's in a beautiful place and he's in peace now.
But today, I am able to let my feelings out. I told him, what I am feeling, my fears, what's bothering me and I am thankful that he understands. I know he understands. I love him so much.
Labels: Everyday living...
@ 10:49 AM
Mozilla Firefox updated :)
Get now the latest version of firefox 2.0. I just updated mine and looks classy :)Wednesday, November 01, 2006 @ 7:38 PM
Whatta day!
Whew at last and the layout I MADE (yes including the codes grrr!) is finally finished! Thanks to my patience for learning the damn codes I was able to finish it. Why, because my very dear bf(when we're in good terms, hubby) didn't bother to help me(busy playing with 9 dragons)! And I am so furious, I wanna grill him alive. But anyway, good for me, coz now I know how to make a nifty one! (I'll rank my work as hmm average...) Too bad, I wasn't able to workout(aerobic, hoop, and attend my sauna/nuga session) today. I feel bad coz I didn't lose a pound after week! But at least I didn't gain, not as bad as I thought and thanks to oolong tea, my savior!I think I need to buy a new cable or bluetooth for my phone, I can't transfer my pics and upload them. I was going to take a shot of the oatmeal bar (or cake?!) my mom made yesterday, but then, it has already rested inside our GI tract, to be digested and eliminated lol. No more bars, only an empty pan (is it a pan?) ready to be washed and scrubbed. Isn't it obvious, people here (including me and our pets) love to eat.
I can't believe it 5 more days and waaaahh! I have to be at school again *sniff sniff* I have to blame myself coz I almost spent a week playing sims 2. 5 more days and I have to be serious again, this time it's for real, no more slacking off and daydreaming! And I'm pretty much ready, I already have my vanilla incense, my mozart tunes, rosemary and peppermint candles/oils, already set to enhance my study (just to motivate me).
Tomorrow I'm back at drawing my tarot cards again and I'll include my interpretation :)
Labels: Everyday living...
@ 11:48 AM
Sa wakas!
A new layout, I designed, but it's still halfway finish. I still need to work on some credits and little info, links and maybe widgets and blog goodies. I'll just continue later! Ciao!Labels: Blah blah...
@ 8:51 AM
Layout is screwed!
I went to bed late last night because I'm working my ass off the layout haha! I already have the design, I'll just ask my hubby to work on the codes. I hate codes. For the mean time, I guess, I'll just use some layout from blogskin :)Labels: Blah blah...
